What I missed!

I have this constant replay in my head of what I possibly missed that could have saved the twins.It aches thinking that i missed the warning signs even if I was a first time mom not really knowing what to look out for.I almost have this intense guilt looking back at what I should have paid more attention to what I should or shouldn't have done. I sit here today with a lot of thoughts running through the events building up to my hospitalisation and ask God to bring me peace that whatever is set out is set out no preventing God's ordained plan!