Staying Strong!

So I get a cup of tea in the kitchen….and I again have to hear of another pregnancy. I had this overwhelming feeling over me and just tried and be polite. But I sit here trying not to ponder too much and stay strong…my eyes tell another story though filled with tears just about to run down my cheeks when I blink I try and hold on to my faith that the joy and excitement will be me one day. I have so much to say about how I feel just right about now but I would love to try and focus on the positive things in life I do not lack, but this remains a painful experience!

Yet Another!

Once again another person pregnant in the place I spent most of time ‘WORK’. I feel kind of sad as yet another person that is not as over the moon as I would be gets the opportunity of motherhood. Let me be honest I feel like crying, screaming it aches just so much. I had the opportunity to sit in church with my friends baby last night and just seeing my husband playing with her made me so sad. I really thank God that he has given me such an amazing supporting husband who still loves me just as I am no matter how much he also wants his own. God has made a promise and I am keeping him to that…But reality checks in that Mother’s Day will soon arrive and I don’t think I would be able to pretend that I’m fine when there would be such a big fuss everywhere you go that day!