"Do you know dad's hurt too?"

It's drawing closer and closer and my heart become heavier and heavier. In just a month they would have been born healthy as any other twin boy and girl. I find myself looking on at others who are giving birth around my time and it sure does hurt. I'm not angry or have any hatred on how God has set out our lives as a couple. I chose to be strong in this journey of kids in heaven and not on earth...but one still have that longing. My concerns are more based on how long I will wait this time around, and no I do not have a lack of faith I'm only human and I do ponder. Myself and hubby had a conversation over the weekend while catching up on our week past, he then suddenly blurts out "Do you know dad's hurt too?" My heart sunk as a rush of guilt overwhelmed me, was I being strong enough to allow him to have his grieving moments? I never realized that even underneath his great sense of faith, trusting and believing in God's promised word, that he might be feeling just as I do. But need to constantly show me his strength as a husband. I have been strong but his love for me runs so deep that even though I show him my strength he still cant let his guard down just incase. I thank God for a husband that has been so patient throughout this journey of infertility and twin loss, "We in this together" is his constant reminder to me and I find great comfort in those words.This brings me to the overwhelming joy that he would have been and will be a great DAD.