Excited to see our little princess in just over a weeks time!

All things are possible!

After 5 years of planning and attending everyone else’s baby shower I finally on the 11th of July 2015 got to experience my very own. Standing there looking at the 100 ladies who all came even though they themselves were unaware I was pregnant until they received their invites, was indeed a great honor and privilege celebrating the most joyous and memorable day in my life. I could truly say that if it was not for the grace of God I would not have gotten this opportunity to experience the special occasion. Those who follow my blog will know the road has not been easy for myself, hubby Dean and our families, and it has been a 5year journey consisting of tears, heartache, many disappointments as well as temporary joy. But we remained faithful and true to the promise of God. In March 2014 I fell pregnant with our twin girl and boy. We were over whelmed with joy and excitement as our breakthrough has finally come, but after a long fight to keep them inside of me on the 18 August 2014 at 6 months I gave still birth to our forever angels Zachary and Zoe, they will always be a part of our lives and in our hearts till the day we meet them again. Myself and Dean always say we can go on to have a 1000 children we will always have two little Cupido’s missing in our family. Through all the heartache and pain we yet again had to focus on God’s grace and mercy and not on our loss, for he truly saved my life during that time. As many of you may know on the 18th of August I nearly didn’t live to see another day. But after all the heartache and pain we had to pick up the broken pieces and move forward, we stayed focused and found our purpose in all this, and that was to be the shining hope to so many that we have since come into contact with. Who would have known God was preparing us for what is ahead, though the future was unknown to us we had to put our faith in God, for a purpose and time I have yet to experience. Like the scripture says “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. In December 2014 I found out I was pregnant and there’s a blessing on the way after going through a storm. However it was yet again not smooth sailing but I knew God has prepared us and the battle is His and victory is ours. Hence the privacy this time around as appose to going viral with the twins. At our 5/6weeks check-up they could find no trace of a fetus and my HCG was exceptionally low, I was advise this could possibly be a tubal pregnancy, with that the doctor said not to get our hopes up as this child won’t survive. After 2 blood test and ultrasounds we finally had confirmation that all was well, there was our little miracle with the strongest heart beat ever. And so the pregnancy progressed but with each millstone reached I was faced with an obstacle to overcome. At 13/14 weeks I was booked in for an Shirodkar cerclage to be placed as a preventative measure to keep my cervix closed and carry full term, the morning of the scheduled op I woke up ill with the bronchitis making them unable to do to do the operation, the hour procedure was reschedule for the following week. I spend weeks in hospital finally being discharged on strict bed rest unable to work…so yes I have been stuck to a bed since Feb 2015 but it’s all worthwhile. Since then of which I have been admitted into hospital 3 to 4 times to date. Once I hit the 25week mark I suddenly felt some discomfort and shortness of breath eventually passing out with no fetal movement or heartbeat. Doctor’s assessments then revealed that princess Zarah was laying on a major blood vessel depriving and restricting the blood supply to my heart cutting the oxygen supply to her as well. A rush of emotions and fear hit me but I was willing to give the best fight I’ve ever given since the twins. For the word says "If you have faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to the mountain be moved and it shall be done” And with this I put my faith into practice and believe in a miracle working God, they manage to get the baby to move off the blood vessel and after a week of observation I was discharged still stuck to a bed for the rest of my pregnancy. So here I am at 8 months in the home stretch still in awe of God’s grace and mercy. My encouragement to those reading my blog once again is that we need only to trust in God that all things will work out for our good. We simply have to seek first the kingdom of God and all else will follow…DON’T GIVE UP!

Rainbow after loosing a child!

God knew that there is something inside each of us that tries to keep us from doing what is right. That is what causes all the trouble in the world. God also knew that one day he would send his Son to save us from that. God saved Noah and his family to show us that he has the power to save us all, and one day bring us to a new life with him in heaven.So God blessed Noah and his family. He told them to have many children and fill the earth with people again. He gave them the plants and the animals for food. And he made people the boss of everything on earth (Think of it this way. You might have a pet dog or a cat. There aren’t any dogs who have pet people!).And then God said to Noah, "Look up in the sky."Noah looked up. The storm clouds were drifting away, the bright sun was shining against Noah's back. And against the dark grey sky, God made a brilliant rainbow appear. God said to Noah,
“You see, I have set my rainbow in the sky. This will be the sign of the covenant I have made with you and all creatures, never again to destroy the earth by a flood. It will always remind us of the promise between you and me.”So, the next time you see a rainbow, think of Noah and the flood. Remember that God loves you, and that no matter how bad the storm, there will always come a bright new day.That is God's promise, and God always keeps his promises he will give you a child once again bringing nothing but brightness in your life!